Honestly I don't even know why I said that. We are close, closer than I'd ever expected.

Maybe I'm just scared that in every conversation, you slip out of my mouth. Scared to love again and end up getting hurt or hurting you. Scared to catch feelings sooner than planned, and scare you off. Scared of owning my feelings, my feelings for you. Scared of owning the power of being able to love again, after hurting so many people because of it.